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| I just dont understand... dont understand life. Why am I the one thats always hurt? I didnt ask for any of this! I do everything I can to make him happy. Why isnt it enough? Its good for a lil while, then smack! Hes no where. I know what I need to do... I dont want to though. | | |
| Ok, heres the question... How do you stop loving someone?  | | |
| Well i dunno if anyone will read this, but i guess its about time i updated. Almost 8 months ago i gave up the pizza making for a job at the court house. Did that for a while, then figured i needed another job...so about 3 weeks ago, i started back at papa murphys. I'm still at the court house, but i do the murphys on the weekends. Not only that, but i'm also working at legion still... fun times i know... Justin and I are still together. as a matter of fact, today is our 2 yrs and things are going just fine!! a year ago i wrote that sarah was in the army..well, she got out..dont ask... while i'm on the subject of sarah, we both moved out of our parents house. we moved into an apartment together... christmas..was great!! so was my b-day... i got some awesome things let me tell ya. for one, Justin got me a necklace for my b-day and a matching bracelet for christmas that was put in a heart that a bear was holding... i love it! well, not much has really gone on.. theres gotta be more i'm sure, but i cant think of anything else... until next time, M p.s. yes, the tattoos still there  | | |
| Hey ya'll..for those of you that dont know me, or remember who i am (lol) i'm mary. Anyway sorry its been so long. guess i'll let you guys get a look into my life over the last year. I'm finally going to school again. I changed my major yet again to office technology. So far it sucks! i'm only taking one class and its soooo boring! the way i'm going, i'm still gonna be a freshmen when i'm 60..wow i hope not! I've worked at papa murphys almost a year and 2 months....somethings gotta be wrong with me..i mean come on.a pizza girl for over a year?!?! i had a seasonal job at cub foods in the floral department. my first v-day at a floral place... it sucked sooo bad! i'm thinking no one liked me there... maybe cause i can make better things? jk i dunno. Here's the shocker...my sister joined the army. shes been in SC... ft. jackson since Jan 9. i miss her so much. Shocker #2..i got a tattoo.. thats right, miss goody goody got a tattoo. its a rose with a banner over it with forever in it. i like it....it looks awesome! i almost moved in with my brother, but i'm still broke... i might be at home as long as i'm a freshman..NOOOOO!!! A couple weeks from now i get to do my first jury duty thingum... oh boy...i dunno, i hear its not that bad. i work at one of those awesome places that wont cover you while you're on it, so the broke thing will turn in to dirt broke! i'm so excited let me tell ya. In case you're wondering, Justin and I are still together... almost a year and 3 months... not bad....heres hoping for a long time to come.... both justin and i work down at the American Legion friday nights... he cooks and i wait tables. its fun. I joined down there and hes waiting to be sworn in or something like that. and just to let you know, i fell on the ice in a friends driveway tonight..OUCH!! Ok, not lots going on in my life and thats probably not all of it, but i'm thinking i should go finish that homework now. Later, M | | |
| Alright, i know everyone has been wanting to know whats been up with me lately (ok not really, but ya never know) so here it goes.
This past year has been one heck of an emotional roller coaster ride for me. I've been heartbroken, torn, in pain, lonely, let down, betrayed, led on, used, misused, mistaken, crushed.. well, you get it… but I’ve also been wanted, needed, befriended, and most importantly, loved. I know I know, its like that for everyone.. but for me, its been harder and what not since last April. I met lots of people. I’ve also lost a few. I’ve changed…some for the better and others; well I think you get it. I don’t know why the bad outweighs the good, but that’s what happened. The biggest heartbreak I think has been the let down by friends. Actually, one in particular but no need to go into that. All I’m gonna say is that I’m still struggling with it. Theres also been a lot of frustrations. Like the never ending phone call that doesn’t get answered. What do I mean by that? I’ve called a friend or two and the call has been ignored and not returned. And no, I’m not talking about my home town friends. You guys are great, I promise I’ll get back in the swing of things and come see you guys.. I miss you all.
But believe it or not, I do have a reason to be happy. And that would be Justin, my bf. He’s great. He can be an ass at times, but hes still good to me. I’ve always said I’d never date anyone younger or shorter than me… well… hes both.. but I don’t care.. hes still the best. I’m not use to being loved by anyone other than my family. I really cant get over the fact that theres actually someone out there that’s not in love with my sister but with me. Its really never happened before and I love it. And just in case you were wondering, its been 4 months  Heres hoping for a never ending romance.. until I call it quits…if I ever do…you never know | | |
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